In the afternoon of today but last year, I saw a man wearing..

In the afternoon of today but last year, I saw a man wearing greyscale clothes, standing, and sliding the phone in front of me after my apartment’s lift opened on G floor. Yes! He’s waiting to pick me up to a coffee date. Along the way he asked me where I prefer to go, what I wanna eat. I had no an answer then, he brought me to a small cafe named “One Ounce for Onion”. It’s very private and quiet place where we can share a small talk searching, wondering in each other more and more. We ordered same as a hot coffee and some casual dishes. I don’t like to eat a fresh tomato but he do, not really. Anyway he stole some tomatoes in my plate since he told he’s not full :P After that we had more hang out with a few beers and talked some deeper. He send me back to my apartment and say goodbye by softly hugging with a sentence “I showed what I want you to know (like this hug)”. Today in this year, I pretty sure that he can’t remember this absolutely. And, we have no longer any relationships too :( All be a part, I have no ideas which way he keep me or he keep nothing. I’m not a good girl. Actually I’m a hot tempered person. I drive fast, walk quick and annoying with anything out of control. On the other hand, he’s very calm and kind. Kind to me, to children, to animals, especially to environments💚 He inspired me to be a vegetarian right now. (I hesitated to switch for long times) I asked him one thing on my Christmas wish that please be with me as long as you can. Even he’s not be always and Idk really where he was but I can feel and always be support. There are only 2 things in my new year 2021 resolution. First, to learn a piano and second, to improve myself better with him. Just passed his birthday, I had no chance to say hbd. Furthermore I still want him to do with; to go a coffee date again, to take a photo for me. I was very excited that we have plan to take a photo together!! I do sad and lost but without regret since all were walked to the end. For me, It’s hard to get comfort with someone. It’s harder to be without. Also it’s the hardest to feel hopeful indeed again.