I just wanted to take a moment to share a little bit of my w..

I just wanted to take a moment to share a little bit of my world with everyone. For the most part everybody is very kind and patient with me. But I have a handful of people who get very upset with me regarding my time with them. I am dealing with some life altering problems, and it is very important that I complete these tasks this time in my life. I have not been as responsive as I once was, and I promise one day I will get back to that ASAP . In fact I have actually cut this entire account by 60% of my usual following in efforts to keep my favorite people satisfied.

I definitely never want to complain or make you feel like you are bothersome. Because you are the sunshine in my day! I do have an overwhelming amount of people outside of my social media I have to please and that’s not usually a bad problem to have. But, Some days, I have felt so mentally frustrated because there is no way in hell I would be able to tend to my job, well-being , eat, brush my teeth, shower... human stuff. And I keep finding myself in the situation to where I don’t have any extra time throughout my day. And I’m saying this because I literally did not have time to do those things for myself yesterday. Now today, with yesterday‘s priorities repercussion , I feel like I have put so much frustration and pressure on my chest I just can’t do it anymore. I make a lot of daily sacrifices.. whether it be myself or the people I love on and off line ...and yet I still find myself saturated with the feeling of guilt every single day I wake up.
I just feel like I have to pick and choose who I want to pisss off for the day. People in my world of reality or the people online: trust me I do it daily so if I’ve done it to you I’m so sorry. If I had it my way I would never choose between the two. Because you guys are extremely important to me, and a handful of you have been my rock when I’m unsturdy. O.F. for the most part makes me feel human and special and I love being here.

The thought of actually posting this for you guys to read makes my heart ache so much because I never want to be a negative energy in your life. You you have all been so extremely kind, giving and understanding even when you didn’t know what was going on with me.

The truth behind this message is I’m going to choose myself. I will be answering messages every Friday only. I’ve also decided to shut out a lot of Friends and family because of my inability to cope with stress anymore . I’ve made the mistake of putting all my effort in the wrong place. I have been neglecting the place that ensures my well-being financially. I will still send out your weekly videos because I love doing that for you. And I love your responses. Without a doubt you make me feel human and wanted!

I’m going to be focusing more time on fixing myself and getting to the goals I initially set after. This does mean that you’re going to have to suffer as well, and all I can do is apologize for that. However want to reassure *I will not be deleting this account. I understand that all of you won’t be happy with this change. But unfortunately I’ve done nothing but upset everybody around me and I have to be selfish and that hurts me more than anything on earth.

And for the ones who have taken time out of your day to read these final words ending this paragraph. I want you to know I truly love you so very much. You are the reason why I started this page and you are the reason why I will stay ❤️