So, I have been thinking quite a bit lately about giving up ..
Added 2023-10-31 13:31:57 +0000 UTCSo, I have been thinking quite a bit lately about giving up my body to someone half my age to use as his cum dump. I do not require much from him. All he has to do is use my holes and empty his jizz inside me. I'll be happy. This urge is growing into a full-fledged crusade to make that happen, which is probably why I went after that kid in Walmart so hard the other day. A complete failure that one was. I didn't even get close. I got angry because he wanted to get more comfortable with me. My goal was for his cock to feel at ease inside me and pump cum. That didn't happen, and that really did bug me.
He was in his early 20s. I need to find someone older. I'm thinking 30, probably up to 35. I could see myself being folded over a chair and getting my guts packed with a cock from a 30-year-old. I think at that age, they would not only appreciate using me as a mindless cock tunnel but enjoy the power of doing so. I am hoping they will pull my pants down, fuck whatever hole they choose, pour out their testicles inside me, and then use my face to wipe the post-cum drip off their dick, then leave me with cum on my face and drooling nut out of my holes. This next part is important. I don't want them to even think about making me cum. I want to be nothing more than to them than an object used to satisfy their urge to cum. No foreplay, no talk before or after, just pump me. Laugh at me for being such a cock whore. Then leave. Reliving the experience of being bred like a pocket pussy without you there will make me cum harder than you ever could. I know that will bother some of you. You want to make me cum. The thing is. If you fucked me like a toy properly, then you did make me cum. My sexual experience didn't end when you left your sperm in my body. It's just the beginning for me. I intend to use your sperm that is dripping out of and off of me to get off at such a high level that I am unsure if I will get through it consciously. All thanks to you.
I know. I am a fucking nutball. Therapy might be a good call for me. But...what do I care? What turns me on turns me on. I am cumming at such overly intense levels and for extended amounts of time these days that I am constantly chasing that next cum high to exceed the previous one. I'm not going to change my fantasies to be in the "social norm." What a buzz kill that would be. I'm not hurting anyone, including myself. I don't run around saying all women should be ball snot rags. Though the thought of it is intriguing, I get it. Just like guys think with their dicks, I think with my pussy. After I cum, my thoughts are 100 percent back on track, and I'm thinking like a boss. But...and this is funny, my pussy gradually takes over again, and my "be the boss" thought process starts to shift into wanting to be a cum rag again. And I love it. It is a great gift of life. At least, I think it is.
